J's Earthly Escapade

New Proton Putra

2007-10-12T10:31:00.000+08:00

Its amazing how proton can produce such a beautiful car.
Stunningly powerful at that, and wonderfully crafted.

2 litre, inline 6 throwing out 220BHP!!
thats almost Skyline GTR range!
Recaro Seats
Momo Steering
Campro Engine
Sweet ass design

Check it out

Affairs of the heart..

2007-09-25T22:16:00.000+08:00

Just when you think you've got it all figured out.
Along comes confusion...
Nothing wrong with it, just that it makes you really think about what you really want, need and are faced with.
On one hand is passion mixed with baggage.
On the other, uncertainty mixed with stability.

Both passion and stability are of utmost importance to me...

Both have the same virtues...

Sigh, I really got to start praying harder...

I hate being in this situation...really, but i know i have to pray that his will be done...
I also pray that the party that's left, will not feel rejected.

PWC Ubin Cycling

2007-09-06T12:03:00.000+08:00

The Team

Oakley Ad...

After a tiring day...

The Fuadster & Me

A Brief Pause

One of the many Quarries dotting the Island

Break Time @ The Quarry

Beautiful View eh..?

Setting out in the morning after a hearty Nasi Lemak breakfast,

we headed out onto the Bumboats...yes Bum Boats...lol

And began our cycling trip after a few delays...

It was absolutely rewarding and muscle working...

which was what we all needed, a view of nature...and sweat.

3 More Days...

2007-08-28T19:51:00.000+08:00

3 more days to a historic milestone in any guys life...His First Car...
Cant wait to get my hands on her...her slender curves, tight ass...opps...hehe yes its just a car.
Damn...she's turnin me on...
So what shall i name her? Do leave some suggestions on my comments...
thanks

An Expected Unexpected Blessing

2007-08-14T19:49:00.000+08:00

Expected, cause i've been praying for it.
Unexpected cause God has his own timing.

The first step towards my dream.

God to thank.
And to trust.

Just a peek into my cupboard...

2007-08-14T02:09:00.000+08:00

My intimate closet.
Few have seen, Few have survived...
Now, take a peek into the hobby that is...
well just look lah k..

Ferarri Garage

Nissan Skyline - Evolution

Evolution 7 & 6

Tuner Mania...AE 86 and Eclipse Spider..

68 cougar Hot Wheels Ltd Edition

Low Riders.

Muscle Mania

My Latest Baby...

2007-08-14T01:32:00.000+08:00

Its V6 growl hits the spot everytime... Though not the most beautiful prancing horse...It still does turn heads. This is my second try at customising, and it took quite a long while.. Partly cause, its a favour and partly cause im still waiting for payment..hehehe

Still its MY handywork ( 95% )

Here she is...The beatiful 360.

A detailed view of the beige leather interior.

The Engine Bay was designed to be showed off.
Really.

Told you so. The whole rear window is glass...
Tell me that doesnt scream "Look at ME!"

I custom painted the racing stripes, and the blackened
projector headlamps and grills.

During construction

Moving

2007-08-01T01:56:00.000+08:00

Finally the time has come for me to move out of the cave.
Out of comfort and protection, to the bloodthirsty floor outside.
Its every man for himself, and hopefully, my suffering wont be for long.

Thus, now that im a Tech, I'll be doing more Heavy Maintainence and Assembly.
Adding value to myself.
So thats good in a way.

Maybe not for long...

My Passion - Revisited

2007-07-25T12:14:00.000+08:00

There's just something about being at 7000ft that just gets to you.

You're supposed to be shivering out of fear, looking at the distant ground below...
But yet, my pulse was racing, my arteries filled with adrenaline, and butterflies flew around in my stomach...and of course, an ear to ear grin on my face...

There's just something about planes, that transformes me into a small boy...again and again.

Here are some of my best shots, and memories from The Asian Aerospace Exhibition.

RSAF

Boeing AH-64D Longbow Apache

Block 52 Lockheed Martin F16D Falcon

USAF

Boeing F15E Strike Eagle (Soon to be delivered to RSAF in 2008)
Tail code "AK"
3rd Wing, Elmendorf Air Force Base, Alaska (PACAF)

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Boeing F15E Strike Eagle
Tail code "MO"
366th WG, Mountain Home AFB, Idaho (ACC)

B1B Lancer "Dakota Demolition"
1st generation stealth technology
Tail code "EL"
28th BW, Ellsworth AFB, S.D. (ACC)

Thats how BIG this sucker is, almost as long as 747.
Those 4 huge F104-GE-102's can suck anything in.

Thats a swing-wing, 4 man crew bomber.
Gorgeous rare beauty.

Of course the day would not be complete,
without me being in the cockpit right.
Emotionally Excited.
Brings back memories. *sigh*

BTW thats a Saab Gripen.

A National Day Preview.

2007-07-20T02:08:00.000+08:00

Hot afternoon sun dissipating heat into your skin, thoroughly soaking it with waves and waves of higer end of the light spectrum.
But yet I soldiered on, sweating it out at the water front...waiting for the precise moment, when the twin bladed behimoth would take its slow flight overhead, those two huge turboshafts delivering power to the chopper.
Personally I think these are some of my best shots to date. Hopefully many people share my opinion.

"Pride of A Nation"

"Precision"

"Smoke on the Water"

All Photos © Nemesisskywalker

Thailand

2007-06-28T07:56:00.000+08:00

Finally I've uploaded a few good selections of the (more than) 2GB of photos i took in Thailand.
(For the complete collection, check back with the "My Photos" link at the bottom right in a few weeks)
The camp itself was pure fun and enjoyment...though i wished we weren't so tired.
But all in all, it was something new for a church camp..without the sessions..plus, flying there was always an experience! My heart was beating...as if it was my first time having...*ahem* nevermind, too many young kids reading...

Hope you enjoy my selection below, a few of which im VERY proud of (one is worthy of National Geographic, and a few more a public display) :P .

The night before the flight; Me, char and Pat slept at
Starbucks at T2. A fun experience!

5+ am, United taxiing into T1.

The view at cruising altitude, on 3K511.

Spidermen @ Suwarnabumi.

Now for the holiday...

Thats Victor coming in for a landing!
His first Para-gliding experience!
He was sooo excited.

Me talking to the 'Pattaya Tower', clearing me for takeoff.

Thats one of the daredevils, following another kid up...crazy buggers!

The view from our extravagant dinner cruise on the Chao Praya.
A night definitely to rememeber!

The beautifully lit temples along the river!

Getting on the glass bottomed boat at Coral Island.
Look at the clarity of the water!

About to set of from Pattaya beach for Coral Island.
Like Baywatch eh!

One of the two powerboats we were on...damn the adrenaline rush!

Sunset over Pattaya. Heavenly.

I was the only one who got it :P haha everyone else
was downstairs!

Noong Noch Village/Animal Zoo.

Howler Monkey! (Actually howling!)

I think this is worthy of NGC!? any seconds?

The cutest duck family you will ever see.

Talk about beauty on wings. Damn!

Someones relative! hahah, who i shan't say!

Local delicacies! Thats fried baby birds...very crispy, and totally
edible, skull and all.

Those are supposed to be cicadas, but they look more like roaches to me.

Local Transportation

Tuk Tuk!

DAmn, talk about LOW riders! This is an all new LOW :)

A RARE gorgeous beauty! Toyota Supra!

Check out the other pics of this car and you'll understand why

this car is one HELL of a monster!

Me, the after i got injured! that...count....14!! stitches

Afternoon cruise on the Chao Praya.

The temples in daylight.

HUGE Catfish!

Hundreds of them!

The Beautiful Lotus...outside our Pattaya Hotel.

Not the NBA, its the EBA!...go figure!

Premier League! haha is that a Chelsea Elephant?

Tour de France?...hhaha

Micheal Flatley? Riverdance?

The cultural show was a myriad of rich colors!

And animals!

Sword Fighting Demo...FreakiNG COOL! The guy is like in mid air!

My Best Pictures!

Worthy of a photographic magazine?

Muay Thai in Monochrome.

Its amazing how black and white pictures speak a million words, in a

single frame.

Astounding.

But then, so does color.

Neways, on the way to Bangkok, saw this odd museum.

Those are two Vietnam War Douglas c47D Skytrains.

Most of all i just want to thank the Big Guy Upstairs for giving us this wonderful

opportunity!

Song Title

2007-06-26T07:49:00.000+08:00

To the Mysterious person who didn't leave a name or email...
The song on my blog is...
"Far Away - Nickleback"

Its a beautiful song full of sadness...reason...well thats for me to know.

A beautiful day

2007-06-08T02:04:00.000+08:00

Hope.

What is Beauty?
A mere word in the dictionary?
An expression of color, or the lack of it in a painting?
A name in a storybook?
The rare shade of lavender in a butterfly?

Or the vision of God's creation, expressed in a single photograph?

Gen 2 LP640

2007-05-25T01:39:00.000+08:00

My latest design for my upcoming sweetheart.
Gonna have a hard time choosing clothes for her, sigh...

Kinda Emo don't you think? But agressive...damn, kinda
turns me on...hmmm....

Really leaves me drooling...just the lights at the back will differ from this.

Daniel & Fe's wedding...

2007-05-25T00:12:00.000+08:00

Once again...decor as usual...
Peach, Whites and Cream...
Kinda girly if you ask me, poor Daniel.
But then again, im sure he doesn't care...lol

Here's the backdrop design pretty simple and fashionista.

UEFA Cup

2007-05-24T01:51:00.000+08:00

Last sunday, i followed the boys for thier soccer match in the Adonai League.
Needless to say, it was fun. I had a chance to test my sports photographer skills.
Unfortunately, my cam was not up to it...but nonetheless, i managed to get some pretty decent shots...My ISO was too grainy at 400.
But anyways, enjoy...i know the boys did.

Incoming corner kick.

Salem Fire's wall.

Poised to Strike!

Rushing for the ball. Ref in blue.

Caleb doing what he does best...defending.

Some of the arial antics of the Salem Fire team.

Ghananian?

Veinod juggling the ball.

Some more arial antics...walau eh...

Rush! Again!

Bon bon, waiting for the ball to drop from the sky.

The Boys.

Training at MilCom

2007-05-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

A few of us from Pratt & Whitney were sent for Human Factors Training at Changi North Industrial Area, MilCom.
Lo and behold, did we expect it to be a treasure trove of Italian supercars
and beautiful gorgeous works of carbon fibre.
Cars valued above SGD1,000,000.
And cars so rare, you dont see them on the roads

The Awsome CLK GTR. One of the few 'road legal versions of this V10 supercar.

The beauty of Silver.

The bevy of beauties. (From farthest : Aston Martin AMV8 Vantage, Aston Martin DB9 Volante, Ford Mustang, Chevy Corvette, Ferrari Testerossa, Ferrari 512 LM)

The Goddess Pagani Zonda F (Pricetag: SGD3,000,000+)

An Orage tart we saw in the basement carpark @ MilCom.

Thats a Lamborghini Murceilago LP640.

Check the height of this baby beside a Toyota Corolla (left)

The heart of passion. Thats a freaking V10!!

Glass engine bay cover, talk about ego.

20inch, F#()@(#Y% 20 inch.

Raging Bull

Across the parking lot. A Lamborghini Gallardo Spider!

Yes its a convertible!

Here's the Road Tax per YEAR!

My Dream will come in 7 years!....

Seems like there's no ending

2007-05-04T07:57:00.000+08:00

Seems like there's no ending to my designs and mods...sigh.
I hope this doesnt mean that ill be spending millions!

HKS edition

HotWheels. Victor's favourite!

The Final (almost) version of my Street Racer

2007-04-28T02:03:00.000+08:00

Honestly it seems like the Gen2 is the more logical choice...altough smaller,
its easier and cheaper to maintain ( and modify !!! )
But we'll see when July comes!

Street Racer Version

Viper Edition

Street Racer 2 with CF Bonnet

Street Racer 2 with Black bonnet

I added the scoop which i think will most likely be on the final car.
I still need your opinions.

To Fly in the Jet STREAM or revolutionize the next GENERATION

2007-04-24T20:02:00.000+08:00

Hmm, so hard to decide (actually no lah) between the 2007 Honda stream and the Proton Gen2.

Both has its pros and cons.

Honda +ve: 7 seater, reliable engine, excellent power,

Honda -ve: $$$, insurance higher, aftermarket parts expensive, maintainence cost high.

Gen2 +ve: $$$ less, easier maintainence, cheaper aftermarket parts, excellent power to weight ratio, easy to modify, parts cheaper

Gen2 -ve: 5 seater, weak body structure, reliability issues.

All in all the proton seems a better choice (except for the seating)

But in the end...haiys im still deciding, which is why i need help.

Do drop me a comment or a mail.

Thanks dearies and mates.

P.S. below are some cool (photoshoped) designs i came out with. :P

Mugen Honda Racing Stripes

German Honda Racing Team

Black Arrow Honda Racing

Stealth Stream Mugen

Graphic Art Gen2

Technophile Nemesis

Gen2's Sexy Ass. (Stealth Version)

Captain's Ball

2007-04-17T09:57:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was PWCs Captain's ball tournament. We had a great time at Pasir Ris Park, running around with a BIG gym ball. lol. A slight twist to the game. It was quite fun, running around, excercising and getting fit. :P

YAY, i so love sweating again...now im more determined to get my BIKE!

Thats a bloody big ball lah....

Seletar Airport

2007-04-09T19:30:00.000+08:00

After having supper at Jalan Kayu, Me and Gareth took a spin around Seletar Airport. I remember that along the runway there were some open streches that weren't closed by gates, so i decided to explore a little bit. Through the dark and lonely tree covered roads, we drove. Deeper and deeper... till at last we saw the light of the runway! Success...but we weren't alone.

There was a car parked there with the aircon on. NOw...If you're my age you know whats going on, if not, go wait a few more years :P
Anyway, the view of the runway was good, but we couldn't see the planes, so we went over to the other side. West Camp, the the YFC was located.

Lo and behold, these were the treasures we found...(mind you they were less than 10m away!), no telephoto used!

RSAF C130 Hercules in for maintainence

I think its a Piper Navajo

AIR ASIA! Boeing 737

Probably another Air Asia 737, with one more
in the background.

I've yet to figure out what biplane this is.
First time i saw this, i was in Chong Pang, and kept wondering what it was.

Now finally i get to see the elusive relic. Its probably 1940's.

Beauty up close

What's EARL? haha. Well this Beautiful C130H
was parked a stones throw away.

Now thats close-up for you!

Proof of how close we were?

Was taken with Gareth's k800i!

NOT even max zoom yet.

A rare sight from Pasir Ris

2007-04-03T12:25:00.000+08:00

A rare sight at Loyang Offshore Supply Base, visible from Pasir Ris.
An Oil RIG! Fancy that...!
Beautiful scenery as well, the rain approaching and dark overcast skies.
Truly amazing.
These are the times i really appreciate my Canon Pro1.
Do comment.

Tugboats Repair Dock

Gloom & Doom.

10 mins before the rain came.

Crystal Mirror

2007-04-02T12:20:00.000+08:00

Finally, the date came. 21st March 2007.
The Crystal Mirror.
Extravagant, Opulent and most of all Entertaining.
Truly magnificent as described on Class 95.
It was such a pity though that we couldnt take picture during the performances...which were out of this world by the way.
Im glad i spent it with who i spent it with. She appreciated it just a much as i did, if not more.

Thanks Sheena. It was a wonderful date.

The Lavish Candelabra

Romance.

The Gorgeous Babe :P hehe

SWAT Music Camp @ Rock City, KL

2007-03-23T07:53:00.000+08:00

From above: KL traffic, Worship Leading, The Band.

there were too many pics, so catch the rest on my yahoo photos. :)

All in all, we had a Great TIme and also A FUn Time.

Caleb's Commisioning

2007-03-22T12:20:00.000+08:00

Once again, SAFTI MI. This time it was my brother.Am so proud of him, at least one of us is an officer.
Though it brought back lots of painful memories and regrets to me,I thoroughly enjoyed my self, playing with my new toy.
Got some Excellent results.
But only a few are here, to avoid and trouble with the MSD :P

Taking the Pledge

SAFTI Parade Grounds

Precision?

SWAT Ubin Adventure...

2007-03-07T07:54:00.000+08:00

The Local Wildlife appeared!

Obstacle course.

Priscilla, the Wild Boar

Keropok Break Time

Some beautiful flower...army boys, look at the leaf behind...

The view from Mamam Beach

Toilet Break

Rakhi's was too small...her bag i mean. :P

Where the hell did Cookie Monster come from?

Public toilet

The whole Gang - Swat

My dad, trying to ride....after.....eh....dont know how many years

Choosing the bikes

Approaching Ubin Jetty

Prisoners on Board

Eh, my Bike's nicer lah!

Gareth's yummy breakfast.

Last saturday, SWAT had a cycling expedition on Pulau Ubin. Half a day of Cycyling through the Kampung of an island, through the jungle and of course thru the MUD! hahaa, remeniscing my NPCC days....sigh. I really miss that place! Well, they had a great time cycling, and i had a great time leading ( and laughing at them :P ). hehhe. All in all it was a great bonding session.

Valentine's Day Fund Raiser

2007-03-02T19:27:00.000+08:00

This fundraiser was held in church to help raise funds for the youth ministry. Oraganised by the SWAT team, it was also a chance for couples to have a romantic dinner for two in 'Paris'.
The decor was designed by moi, eunice and abigail.
Paris, being the 'City of Love' was chosen to envelope the couples with the mood of the night.
Thanks to all who helped out, provided dinner and waited on the couples.

Bevy of beauties.

Table for two?

The wait staff..Estherie, Deb, GK, Gops, Deeps & CL.

Pure Romance.

The pre-dinner cocktail room.

Hearts ablaze.

Professional table setup, by Mah.

The main backdrop, Eunice and Me.

All Photos Taken with my Canon Powershot Pro-1. No Flash.

Thanks again to all who helped out. Merci.

The Crystal Mirror

2007-02-28T02:04:00.000+08:00

An unexpected but excellent windfall.
In my first radio call in contest win, I've won a $600 dinner for two at The Crystal Mirror this coming March @ the Padang.
Im esctatic, beyond words and expression.
Reason? well, i can't tell, everyone. Its only for the person involved to know when the time comes.

God (for now) only knows why Im this happy.

Fine dining...Entertaintment...and a Gorgeous (I MEAN REALLY Gorgeous) ambiance.

Of course, the person having dinner with me really means alot to me. That's why im bringing her.

Seriously, I know I'd be the happiest spending that evening with her.

When times are tough, and things look bleak...I'm glad I have them

2007-02-26T19:44:00.000+08:00

It's been a great 10+ years, my dearest friends. Couldn't ask for more.
Thank you.

Birthday @ East Coast. That's a blueberry cheesecake slice...

My angels.

YD & Ting

Cher, Nat, Fer & YD ( from left)

The WHOLE Jug???

My office workspace

2007-02-23T12:48:00.000+08:00

This is what happens when you have a lot of interest, and a lot of paper :P. Yes, its made entirely of paper.

AT-ST

X-WING FIGHTER

TIE FIGHTER

The End.

2007-02-23T12:45:00.000+08:00

As soon as it all began, It soon dissapeared.
Its over.
What the future holds, no one knows.
Right now, i don't give a damn.

I just hate the immaturity of the action, I can never hate the person.

*sobs*

Goodbye zar.

Birthday Chalet

2007-01-10T09:59:00.000+08:00

4th Jan was YD and Min's Birthday. They celebrated at the Aloha Loyang Chalet. BBQ and stayover...the works, such a pity i couldnt be there on the day.
Neways, rushed back from KL, showered, and headed down there.

Birthdays will always be a memorable time, no matter how small, or who youre with.
And better yet if its with people who are close to your heart.

Neways...me and Nat below playing with our food :P

And this is part of my photo shoot of Min. Pretty ah...haha (the pic!) lol, yes yes, the model too...

Nostalgic Pasir Ris...

The guys...

Wayang Kulit*? *malay for shadow play

Vincent's new bra? Hmmm...29A? lol.

Roxy's new Singapore Ad. Love the contrast in weather.

A Glorious Malaysian Christmas

2007-01-09T10:16:00.000+08:00

Sitting in the bus, coming back to Singapore, I got an SMS from MINDEF..."This is a reminder for your ICT...blah blah blah!". Sheesh, come back only kena call up. sian. The five hour journey was a good chance to reflect, recollect and wish I was back in KL. All the dinners, parties, shopping, driving and of course dating. :)

To say i miss her would be an understatement. Seriously. The hour plus we had together was all the time in the world, because i was with her. Of course, I wanted it to be longer, and if possible forever.

Meeting up with cousins, uncles and aunts, grand uncles and grand aunts...the list goes on...was of course the bomb lah, seeing how much everyone grew sideways or upwards...lol. Church was great too! *Thanks to the ROCK KL for a wonderfully talented and meaningful Christmas and New Year's service...more like a gathering than a service, but thats the way i like it.

Now comes the fun part...renting a car!!! Wohoooo...all by myself, I got a Kancil for 60RM which is cheap lah...considering the period, and plus it had free delivery and return haha wow!!! thats like soo good lah. But of course like i said, every new driver has to knock something...lol in my case, someone knocked my rear end. *see pic below* Driving at 120 on the expressway is nothing. But doing it in an 850cc kancil...haha is an experience lah...so fun overtaking big lorries and bigger cars.LOL. wish i could have taken a video...oops,then my one hand driving would have been seen :P

Anyways.
Here's some pics...enjoy...

My scratched Kancil's ass.

The Wondercar...

Initial D...haha

The Uncles & GrandAunt. That only makes up bout 6% of them

The view from Concorde Hotel. Immaculate

KL Tower ( yes there is such a place!) at night.

Tony & Alan, ROCK Church KL.

One of 7!!! Skylines i saw...Beautiful R33 with a Nismo Body kit

Victor&Me

Slvina,Grace&Debbie

An Excellent Star Wars Video

2006-11-15T12:52:00.000+08:00

Never in my life have i seen such a well choreographed fan video.
Worth paying tribute to.

For all the Jedi's...

or click here

Amazing Race Sentosa

2006-11-07T19:54:00.000+08:00

SWAT had their first ever Amazing Race in Sentosa.
Fun was the highlight of the day.
And the prizes were the best.
I was attached to the XTRAIL team. Tiring? Duh! My muscles are still aching!

2nd place blues...or is that an "I'm cool no matter what, pose"

The sacred white peacock. (yeah sure!)

Our Singapore National Volleyball Team. :P

Hidden Dragon! Where's the Crouching Tiger? Hmmm!

Now, how do i cook Chicken Briyani?

Lotus (Elise, I wish)

So do you Paul, take Charlotte...

WHat!? I can't kiss her?!

I can't read the map! Argh...

Ok lets go! Umm where ah?

The Price of Distance

2006-11-06T19:46:00.000+08:00

To Be Read On That Day.

The price has been paid. In full.
The unexpected, totally unexpected.

Though my heart hurts beyond controllability, I cannot bring myself to anger. I know I am partly to blame. My not being there, caused a longing, beyond controllable desire. With the intoxication of endorphines, flowing from every cell in her body...

My heart knew something was wrong, I just didnt dare ask her. Not wanting to anger or sadden. I can't blame anyone now, nor do I want to.
We are now equal. At the same level, and the almost the same form of the experience. In a sick way, I am relieved. Maybe its because, now I don't have to feel guilty when the time comes. Tears flowing down my cheeks now, because I know, despite this equality, we have lost something really special.

Move forward is what we are doing. Putting the past behind us, and sticking even more faithfully. I know and hope this has made us realise how close we have to be, because of the distance. We understand each other now, even better.

The day will come when we will look back at this, and cry and weep, but at the same time, I know we'll be holding each other tight and realising how much we love each other, how much we've grown, and how far we've come.

I love you. I'm forever yours, faithfully.

To Be Read On That Day.

The Troubles of Distance

2006-11-03T15:15:00.000+08:00

To all who think that having a long distance relationship is easy.
Nonesense.
It really requires trust above all else, and of course understanding. Especially when you dont talk to each other very often.

Because of this lack of communication, breakdowns are common. No frequent, but common. Sometimes these breakdowns lead to major misunderstandings and in worse cases, hate.

Independence is a quality that comes tied together with a devil may care attitude. If you are affected by the words of people around you, you are not truly independant. Besides your lifestlye being independant, so must your mind be. Your ideas, thoughts, and decisions.
Its already hard for me to communicate with you, now its even harder with this situation. When i need you to understand what im trying to do, you keep your distance. All this doesnt help, yes im supposed to be mature, but hey! Im still human.

Im not here to destroy anything. I want to build it up. You have to know how to do things smartly, not lay everything out on the table. You dont play poker putting all your cards on the table.
For you to win, you have to play smart. No one will get hurt in the end (not talkin bout poker now).
Timing is of the essence, If you dont play the right cards at the right time, Its going to backfire.
It already has in a way.
I just hope it doesnt become worse.
Yes its a risk we have taken, but a calculated risk that you are refusing to calculate right now.

I wish i could sit down with you and explain everything. sigh. I just wish.

Its bad enough i miss you so much, and bad enough that i have step back and allow you to concentrate (the latter of which i know must be done).

Sigh.
Miss you.
REALLY.
joshie.

Operation Val

2006-11-01T17:22:00.000+08:00

Did a birthday over the weekend. One of my church members. This is like the dont know how many'th party decor im doing and im really proud of what i do. Anyway the party direction was given to me, so that really helped...i was able to come up with decent (ok more than decent!) decor. Pink and White...and It was a garden theme. Though the budget was considerably small. I managed to pull off the look. LoL. The best thing was getting the Survivor style oil lamps. I think the pictures below speak more than words.

My Pride and Joy. Many thanks to those who helped out, you know who you are. : )

Sentosa Expedition!

2006-11-01T12:33:00.000+08:00

Went to Sentosa on Hari Raya to Prepare for this saturday's amazing race. Lucky i took my cam, decided to try some nature photography. lol. and some other crazy stuff.

The Cathedral

Are we in Jurrasic Park?

Crystal Clear

Spiderman 4 - The New Guy

Coach 75

2006-09-28T19:49:00.000+08:00

Dont know what Coach is...aiya, you're internet savvy enough to be at this site, use your brain a bit lah. (hehe, no offence ah)

The event is more or less confirmed at the end of the year, with Coach pumping in $200k.
Yes, $200k!

And what am i doing? well, what i am known for. Designing. The dinner Room and the secret location. yes...Im more worried bout the room seriously. Sigh, to make it as elegant as possible!
If people are going to pay $500 a head, they better feel like they are in a palace.

Pressure pressure pressure.

And the person who can alleviate it and make me feel calm is so far away. My heart feels like breaking to pieces. Sometimes i feel she is much more stronger than i am, that im more emotional.

Age evolves your expectations of love.

Im sorry, for being a bit overprotective, but i guess, you cant help it when your are guarding a diamond.

Party of the Year! Coach 75!

Tears.

2006-09-12T02:11:00.000+08:00

I wonder if anyone watched the new DBS ad on Channel 5.
It tells the story of an old taxi driver, in the 70's. He was talking about his son, how he always sat in the left hand seat, and never got a chance to sit in the driver's seat. But his dad was always saving up for him all this while...in POSB no less...then of course DBS. He said "I know he is destined for greater things".

But then came the part which just broke me to tears.

The father, was at the edge of a runway, and he gave his son a DBS account book and said something along the lines of, "Son, i know you'll make us proud".

Then the the next line was vocalised.

"Now, he is still sitting in the left hand seat...but unlike me, he is the captain of his aircraft."

The tears would not stop flowing, thank goodness my mom was in her room.
Even now, they threaten...

For those who barely know me. This is me.

For those who do, thanks for your constant encouragement.

Especially you.

joshie

Nanofied

2006-09-07T12:44:00.000+08:00

A real blessing. I thank the Big Guy upstairs : )

The IPod Nano, won at Pratt & Whitney's D&D, during the lucky draw. Some artistic photos I took for you guys to enjoy (don't envy k).

Do comment on the photography.

RSAF Open House 2006

2006-09-06T12:38:00.000+08:00

Bittersweet.
Thats the best word to describe it. The feeling of being there, touching them and watching someone you know parade past with a pair of gold wings on their chest. It does come to mind...*that could have been me*
But I guess the beauty of the F16 block 52 just blew me away...not to mention all the other aircraft.
Enjoy.

F16 C VIPER

F5 E TIGER

E2 C HAWKEYE

CH 47 CHINOOK

AEROSPATILE SUPER PUMA

AH 64D APACHE LONGBOW

F16 D VIPER (BLOCK 52)

F16 D VIPER (BLOCK 52)

The Price of Love.

2006-08-21T12:15:00.000+08:00

$8.50 a weekend? Or $800 for possibly a life time.
Of course i'd choose the latter.

Brings me to my next question.

Would you rather have 1cent today, 2cents tomorrow, 4 cents the day after and so on for 30 days, OR have $100,000 straight? Call me for the answer hehe.

Any investors for the above mentioned phone?
Sigh, it hurts big time when you can't talk to the one you are so eager to spend time with. Some of you guys who are reading this are very lucky to have the one you love within an hour travelling time or less from your house. (Thats the width of Singapore)
Other people like me have to make do with what they have, and work on trust and communication.
Am i crazy? Is she crazy? Maybe, but we know we are well matched. And all the minimum requirements are filled :P for both of us. I really couldnt ask for more (only the distance). Almost identical taste, in food, CARS ( yes cars! *faints*), music, talent, and of course creativity.

Why am i blogging this, cause i think soon it'll be time for all to know.

joshie penned his thoughts. finally.
hopefully i finish the song :)
Its hard to believe, but its almost been a year.

joshie.

Singapore's untouched beauty.

2006-08-15T00:11:00.000+08:00

There is still untouched and unchanged beauty in Singapore. One just has to be patient, and observant and determined. Beauty is always there, its whether we choose to see it.

The Red Dragon

Past and Present at the Future

Autumn In Singapore

Fireworks Festival 2006 Pt 2

2006-08-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

The emotion and excitement that is conjured up during a fireworks display is inexplicably enjoyable. Be it the romantic Italian display, the fun-filled New Caldonian display or the elegant French one, they all made me sigh with pleasure and also with sadness at the same time. I have my reasons. Im glad that i got to share it with the friends who are closest to me, all the fireworks 'kaki'.
Pictures capture the essence of fireworks; Video, its sound and emotion. I hope you enjoy this little preview. If you want to see all, please look to the middle right of my page, for the links to my Photo album.

For the pics in thier full glory (resolution that is) please contact me directly.

Enjoy.

Fu dé joi (Fire of Joy)

National Day Parade

2006-08-10T12:40:00.001+08:00

This year was a bit of a let down, cause Fireworks were all but spectacular. Given the fact that so much money was supposedly spent on it. It was nothing compared those at the Fireworks Festival. Nonetheless, Some meager shots were captured of the Fireworks as well as the flypast... :) Sigh, just wished i could be in that cockpit...eh wait...I was...lol.

Enjoy.

The State Flag Flypast (CH47 Chinook + AH64D Apache)

Lé Fireworks

Not a total disappointment i guess. :)

Fireworks Festival 2006

2006-08-07T19:22:00.000+08:00

The Singapore Fireworks Festival is being held @ Marina Promenade on the 5th, 8th, 11th and 12th August 2006. Had a great time (though i wished someone else was there so much :( sigh...) with my closest friends. Below are some of the shots i took. Some being pre-fireworks shots. Aiya, i was so bored lah waiting, but i had no choice. sian. If not, there wouldnt be these great pics hehehe.

Final Shots.

2006-08-02T22:15:00.000+08:00

Today I have been confirmed as a Staff of P&W Canada! Yay...Thank God for this job, I know its in His plan.
And He has me in mind constantly.
Now I must live my life right to show how much I love Him.

So proud of this car, my first custom job. It took almost 2 months.

My most detailed interior to date,
TWIN NOS TANKS! Scratch built guages,
knobs, buttons, switches and rollcage.

Ala INITIAL D hehehehe. Volk Racing 18's

My Japanese Darling.

FireWorks

2006-07-25T12:49:00.000+08:00

Fireworks Galore!!!

5th, 8th, 11th and 12th August...yay!...haven't missed it yet...wont miss it now.

Do check out the Unusual Productions website for more info.

Its a spectacle to behold. trust me. i've been there!

More of my new baby.

2006-07-22T17:31:00.000+08:00

More of the passion in my life.

My Newest Baby

2006-07-19T20:05:00.000+08:00

NISSAN SKYLINE R33 STREET 'KURE'

First Drive.

2006-07-12T09:49:00.000+08:00

Was a good first legal drive around ubi. felt good not worrying about the TP. haha, not like last time, trying to drive as normal as possible. But im glad i finally started. Well, i hope i get it on the first try, cause i want to drive for christmas. LOL.

Monday morning was a disastrous day for FRANCE. caught the match at sheen's place, with shaik and some other of her friends. Its a lot more fun watching it with friends who support different teams. Cycled there all the way from Pasir Ris....was sooo totally unprepared, long time didnt cycle mah...muscles still aching :P ouch.

Then after the match, cycled ALL the way back. slept for one hour. and got up to get ready for Suj's Convocation. Something i know i wouldnt want to Miss for the World. *winks*
Spent some quality time with the family. *sigh, wanted to talk to suj about this...dear if you are reading this please call me.*

Sometimes we fail to recognise or sometimes even purposefully ignore someone who really cares about us. Be it for whatever reason, accident, or just plain ignorance. I am guilty of it also.
But i hope that people who are reading this, do a check...and see, open your eyes. You can confide in these people, no strings attached, because, they care about you, no strings attached.

Think about that.

Happy Birthday Suj. God bless.

Joshie.

*sigh, wish i could post pics*

That tight feeling squeezing your heart...

2006-07-06T19:51:00.000+08:00

When you miss someone so much but you have to hold back for what ever reason.

Come into my life. Sweep me away.
Take my hand. Lead me not to sway.
Be who you are. Make me love you in this way.
Test my heart, with you so far away.
What hurts the most, is being so close but having to be so far apart.

There is no cure, only painkillers.

The time will come, I know. But for now, this is all i can say.

I miss you till my heart aches, and my tears flow.
Unknowingly in the night.

If this is not love, nothing else is.

joshie

Achtung! Its the end of the road...

2006-07-05T19:40:00.000+08:00

Shit, shit and more shit...the Azure won by luck, nothing else.
The Germans should have won...really. damn.
WHhhhhhhhYYYYY!!!!????

Ah, wth.

If Portugal wins tonite, they better kick the Italianos back to making cars, and not soccer.

We shall see, the experienced Frenchies or the hyper Portugeese. :P

Sigh, miss you.

joshie.

MX5 Magic

2006-07-03T19:58:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday :)
Today is a very special birthday. Im glad to be a part of it.

Last night went for a test drive in YD's 1995 MX-5 convertible!!! SOOO COOL LAH...haha, with the top down! lol...drive ard the carpark was enuf for the bug to bite me...now i must get a conv. or a cabrio...hmm i wonder if a Starlet GT Turbo can be cabriolised...lol...we shall see!

Damn, was such good pickup and wonderful acceleration. Damn nice lah.

Sigh, TP on the 28th NOV 2.45 pm... must drive by christmas!

Yay!
joshie

Where has all our money gone???

2006-06-29T12:38:00.000+08:00

Just 2 days ago, SBS inaugerated the new wheelchair friendly buses on service 21.
And just yesterday...yes yesterday...one day after...one brokedown outside whitesands primary...pictures on Egg Sushi's blog.
How is this possible? A New bus? Unreliable? Wth...what is SBS spending on? paying the bosses? ( and we all know who that is ).
I must leave a note on Mr Brown.
this is nonsense.

au revoir.
joshie

Unspoken, Unwritten but Unforgettable.

2006-06-27T07:53:00.000+08:00

A special friend, who's friendship goes unspoken. Yet, this friendship is unusually close when the time calls for it. Just like an angel is sent by God at the right time and place, to send a message of hope and love.

Your nickname truly befits you my dear, dont ever lose that.

Though i may seem to do more about this friendship than you, its only because when it's your turn, you make up for it by doing something great and pleasantly unexpected.

Thank you for being you. :)

on another note:
Message for 'jasmine'. no jas, i dont recall kuching, i havent been there myself, though my Youth Team has...maybe you got them mixed up with me...or if we have met online, please forgive me, i dont recall. Do send me an email, I'd be happy to explain this confusion.

Home Alone 2

2006-06-19T19:59:00.000+08:00

First day of being alone at home, no one, just me. shit boring. sucks. lonely. tiresome. swept the house (this will be used as proof of my work). Now at work, at least got something to do to keep myself busy.

Some times all you need is the words 'I miss you' or I'm thinking about you to make your whole week. I hope people realise that. I the other part of my heart does. :)

Everday, Maggi-mee. Wah sian.
But its my speciality...lol. NPCC basic diet No.1

Today also happened to be a very sad day. Very sad.

Nicholas Christian Piay
Went to be with the Lord @ 1332 pm

My condolences to Pat and his family.
May God continue to strengthen this family during this troubled time.

A big thank you...and a happy birthday

2006-06-10T13:39:00.000+08:00

First of all , i want to wish my dearie Felicia...
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!
so sad i couldnt be there...sigh...work lah, what to do.
My heart is with you, do not sigh, and i will make sure you have an Unforgettable wedding.

next up,
thanks to nat, who kindly (well actually, i know he will) let me use his bandwith for the song currently playing.
seems that both of us are in similar boats.

well
au revoir...till next time.
joshie

Rascal Flatz - What hurts the most

2006-06-09T19:54:00.000+08:00

What hurts the most, is being so far away from the one that shares your heart. And not being able to do much about it.
sucks.
really.
But in the end, all good things come to those who wait.
And i know it'll be worth it.

Miss you.

P.S. listen to the song in the title, really good harmonization.

All a flower needs to grow is...

2006-06-05T19:38:00.000+08:00

Water, sunshine and patience...lots of it.
We dont need to dote over it. Just keep an eye on it.
Things couldn't be better (then again it could) but i guess we have to be contented with what we have. A guided love doesnt need our help, just our dedication and trust.
I really feel this is the last and the best.

The one.

No over-reaction, just plain trust, and dedication.

My heart is at peace finally.

joshie

X3

2006-05-31T07:52:00.000+08:00

Yest managed to catch X3, 17 of us..damn big group lah. It was fun but i had to sit alone cause 17 IS an odd number..but it was interesting sitting alone...you are free to express yourself.
Like when Prof. X dies...haiys, killed by Jean, well not really Jean..it was Dark Phoenix...shit man, she is really scary...something about her just made her seem soo powerful...and uncontrollled...i guess thats what i fear most, not being able to control my powers ( actually myself lah ). But its really a scary thought.
Anyway.
Also another thing happend...im glad to know that He is in control of my love life, and im thankful for Him for showing me what was wrong, and who was actually the right one all along. Thank you.
But i now know its up to me to keep on this path.
The one laid before me. And especially not deviate.

so the final verdict....
JZ

well, another good movie, another guided life, and a mended heart.

joshie out.

P.S. there will be an X4 lah...confirm one. For all those nuts who didnt stay after the credits...well too bad hahhhaha.

AMI

2006-05-25T19:56:00.000+08:00

TAYLOR WON....thank GOD...hahha.

YIpeee...

life goes on... :P pay day soon. 2 days.
my promises have to be fulfilled.

miss my angeles.

must buy transformers for victor this weekend..provided i can play also lah..hehe

GTR update: front and rear axels completed, TEIN coilovers in progress...

joshie

work work work

2006-05-19T12:41:00.000+08:00

its been great working here. ppl are good, env is good.. (so far)
and my questions have finally got answers. finally.
sigh
love is a wonderful thing. but its no use if you're loving a wall.
lucky for me my wall just became human again.
thats the problem when you do your search overseas, communication is life and death.
well, life and death of your relationship that is.

well
back to work
au revoir.

joshie

finally...

2006-05-18T12:37:00.000+08:00

im back, at the office, my new job. aircraft engine inspector.
im good, mentally and physically
but emotionally in the twilight zone.
dont ask why i was away for so long.
i just was
but now im back ( from outer space...)

its been 2 weeks since we talked...its painful, and i think its getting to her.
i can only hope and pray.
crap.

sigh

shit.

the end

joshie

HOME, HOME on THE RANGE

2006-03-15T00:30:00.000+08:00

Going to KL tomorrow morning...So everyone try not to msg me. LOL.
Ill be back on the 20th early morning.
After enjoying myself at the Sepang F1.
I hope i can get there and back in one piece.

Those of you who can, pray for my safe journey to and fro.

See everyone soon.

Joshie away!!!

BLunder...

2006-03-12T23:59:00.000+08:00

Tonight i was supposed to be in camp, but unfortunately some people forgot to include me in the 'passanger manifest'. Screwy shit. A night of fun was spoilt haiys. Only to be replaced by a night of sadness.
sigh.
My brother left to KL already, and im next on tues. Now i hope that the news im about to get isnt that bad.

sigh

joshie out.

Just a post

2006-03-10T11:23:00.000+08:00

Finally finished the video for my dear Suj, on the 070705 London Bombings. Just another video to add to my portfolio. Sigh, i wish i hadn't deleted all the others. Damn.
Now its back to realxing for a while, and getting ready for my trip to KL.
So excited!
Hehe.
Can't wait. Im excited and worried at the same time. Its hard to describe, because i want this to work out so much, and i HAVE to be the more understanding one in this.

The Sepang Grand Prix is going to be a wonderful thing. Too bad i have to go alone. :(
Wish she could go with me, sigh.

Anyway...
joshie out.

My Hobby, my babies.

2006-03-08T21:13:00.000+08:00

Below are my models which i have hand built and painted, painstakingly...and patiently :) Just to let those ppl who dont know what my hobby is.

Ferrari F50 (Tamiya 1/24)

Nissan Calsonic Skyline R34 JGTC (Tamiya 1/24)

Ferrari F40 (Tamiya 1/24)

P-51D Mustang (Trumpeter 1/72)

F-15D (Academy 1/72)

F-14 Tomcat (Academy 1/72)

F-18 Hornet (Italeri 1/72)

VF-1S Valkyrie Macross (1/32)

Gundam Seed - Duel (1/144)

Models not shown: 1/72 B-1B Lancer, 1/72 F-16 Viper, 1/72 Buccaneer, 1/72 Spitfire, 1/48 Ching Kuo, 1/72 F-117 Nighthawk, 1/24 Ferrari Testerossa, 1/24 BMW cup 3Series, 1/24 Merecedes Benz 190E, 1/24 Volkswagen Karman Ghia.
Unbuilt models: 1/72 A-10 Warthog, 1/72 FW-190D.

Mayday! Mayday!

2006-03-05T19:31:00.000+08:00

Mayday! Mayday! This is flight JZ 24, we have a twin engine blowout, and we are rapidly losing altitude. I repeat, we have a twin engine blowout, and we are losing altitude.

Just when you think everything is going well, something unexpected comes along and brings with it a heap of dissappointment.
Though not intentional, my heart did break. But later i realised, i was just being presented a set of rules and i needed to respect and follow them closely if i wanted this to work.

I was just hurt at the intial reaction.
" I just have no mood".
That just broke my heart into a million pieces, and threw me into confusion.

After clarification though, i realised what was happening. And I know i did the right thing and gave the right words.

joshie out.

Meanwhile, in my life, i realise there is alot of responsibilty on me, A BLOODY lot.
And im accountable for alot of things. I hope that after today, my situation will be come through faster. And after the discipline is increased, things i know will get better.

joshie
Lord help me.

Beach

2006-03-04T10:59:00.000+08:00

A walk along the beach does one good.
Alone and in solitude. You can think and ponder, and just enjoy the breeze.

But sometimes its good to have a friend along to have a conversation with.

Once again, lonliness and the longning of certain company sets in.
I guess not many ppl know what its like, cause no one has been in a similar situation, but things are going better than expected.
And all i can do it thank Him.

Its something that is hard to find, but when you have it. Its priceless.

joshie

Farewell to Down Under.

2006-03-01T00:52:00.000+08:00

Sent my dear brother, Nat off to Sydney today. Flying back for his next year at UNSW.
Sigh, i know my turn will come soon.
Sooner than i think.

Also got to know a secret. A Happy secret. An Exciting secret.

hehehhehe.

jOshie out.
( i hope the ppl call soon for my interview ) its in YOUR hands Lord.

Asian Aerospace Fever

2006-02-27T13:46:00.000+08:00

Arrrgghhh! Look at that beautiful AH 64D...was my first words...in my head.
It was the beginning of an almost beautiful day. Thursaday, i went alone to the Asian Aerospace exhibition. Uncle Kumar gave me a trade day ticket so i went alone, other wise i would have had to pay $50.
There is a nice thing about going alone...you can take your own sweet time looking at the exhibition, and the displays, taking photos, looking at the babes, getting posters and souveniers.
No one to force you to go here or there, or give you timings...pretty cool.
But there is a downside though, people tend to be less bold when they are alone.
Its the same theory that applies to gangs and teams.

The Arial Display was a big let down, only 2 jets and the A380, the rest were turbo props. And Thursday i decided to leave early. It was just in time though, when i stepped onto the bus, it started drizzling. Then it poured. I just managed to survery the area, and plan my route for the next day.

Friday was more crowded, and i luckily i registered the day before, when there were less ppl...
I managed to reach just in time for the display...just missing the UAV.
It drizzled abit, but just for 5 mins, during the display...many people ran for cover...but i stayed out, looking at the clouds.

So i took my time walking around...taking LOTS of pics (click here and look for Asian Aerospace)
Met a lot of ppl from camp, alot of SAF personnel that day.
All in all, for me, it was a success...and a loss that this will be the last AA in Singapore.
But hopefully, the Singapore Airshow will be better.

LTA J RAJ out.

P.S. Below is a composite photo of the most beautiful babe of the day...

Hating my Self, Tearing up to pieces cause of my weakness...

2006-02-23T13:33:00.000+08:00

Everytime this happens, i wish i didn't have any feelings or emotions. Or i was just a stone wall.
I never want to hurt anyone, i just wish i could express my feelings...shit. Its so bloody hard when she i so far away.
And I am to blame for not having the best self-control, which has landed me in shit now.
Blame me again for keeping to myself when i should have talked to someone.
Now i am the thorn of two roses.
And i just ruined one.

@#*^%_*^

My heart is in a million pieces, broken by my own bloody destructive indecisiveness.

If she was here, it'd change everything. Everything.
*tears*
Sorry is not going to be enough to change things, or repair them.
Im really lost.
Thats it.
Im an asshole and i know it. now leave me alone. thanks.

Confusion-cious

2006-02-20T11:37:00.000+08:00

Just when you are sooo sure about someting, something comes along and just throws it into confusion...like dropping a skyscraper into a serene pond!

And you have to decide what to do in a split second...hmm sounds like a pilot's situation.

Asian Aerospace this week...looking forward to it. I hope i get the tickets from Uncle Kumar.
Then i can go...and a camera...sigh, must get it from YD, if he's not using.

Cant wait for all the planes..ooohh...yeah baby!
hahaha!

joshie...........fly away.

Part of my heart returned ♥

2006-02-18T19:47:00.000+08:00

A cute little koala came from the land of my birth, with a message from the other me. holding flowers in one hand, a message on writing. I've been waiting for this koala for way to long...5 days to be exact. Im feeling on top of the world...
*sings to the Carpenters*

I am sure. I am sure.

joshie out
*into lala land*

Crazy Cartoons

2006-02-18T00:03:00.000+08:00

Here are some crazy cartoons i found...enjoy.

Post Valentines...trauma??

2006-02-15T19:31:00.000+08:00

No trauma lah...nothing to traumatise me, except the very bitchy past...hmm. I wonder who.

Besides that, had a great time last night @ C.A.N. cafe @ Liang Siah Street ( the one next to Bugis Junction, with all the cafes and pubs. ) with the gang...nice (over-priced) drinks. But the ambiance was great. Cozy and Fun.

Took a friend out to meet the gang. She is all alone in Singapore for six months, so just wanna make her feel comfortable.

Did you know Google, is launching its own version of PayPal...
of all the *#^_(*!#%_@ names, they're going to call it...

Gbuy

(for obvious hokkien literary resemblence, i shall leave it as it is)

What's next, Gbay???

"Shop on Gbay, use Gbuy to pay"

walau!

joshie out

Its Lovey Dovey Valentine's Day ♥

2006-02-14T13:54:00.000+08:00

Its A beautiful tuesday morning...the sun is up, the birds are chirping, and my ♥ is far FAR away from me. Though I want it to be there, I wish my body, soul and mind was with it. Far far away, over the causeway...☺♪♫♀♂

Tonight i'll be with my friends, celebrating Valentine's at a cozy little cafe.

Valentine's is not just about your girlfriend or boyfriend, your wife or husband...LOVE is much deeper than that. Much more variations to it.

The three basic being Agape, Phileo and Eros. [Greek]
Agape [unconditional] is from God to men.
Phileo [brotherly] is between friends/brothers.
Eros [romantic] is between lovers, couples and spouses.

So Valentine's Day is not just for couples, its also for friends...
So for all those idioticaly shallow people out there who sms and wish...Happy Friendship Day...wake up LAH for goodness sake...and stop being a bloody chicken.

If its Valentine's, say Its Valentine's.

Joshua out.
hatiku jauh di seberang laut...

First minor party :P

2006-02-13T20:37:00.000+08:00

Me just came back from MSS minor chalet/party/bbq.
Me VERY tired.
Me miss my PC.
Me miss... :)
Me will blog soon.

joshie

Just at the right time...

2006-02-10T00:56:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, when you are so involved and connected with a person so dear to your heart, you are just connected spiritually, even more so if both are in the Lord. Im so glad i called her at the exact moment that i did, and the funny thing was i was so prompted to do so, even a few days ago.
Im beginning to feel more and more like Hans Solo...looking at Leia. To bad she's on Alderan, and im on Tatooine. Sigh.

Well, went to Jalan Kayu to eat prata today. SO BLODDY EXPENSIVE! $2 for a DINO MILO, $2 for a cheese prata, and 50c for a stick of satay? Ridiculous man...im never going there again.

We seriously have to find better eating spots man. Now that we have cars.
Thanks to Gareth, And Bobby. Soon to be Joshua too.

joshie

At the right time

2006-02-10T00:55:00.000+08:00

Day 3 - Heart of Worship

2006-02-09T01:35:00.000+08:00

Today was Rakhi's Birthday...Her....eh....XXth birthday....lol. im not so mean.
Ever since so long ago...ive been getting vibes. Vibes of a certain nature, that i know she knows i sense, and she wants me to know it. But then again, i dont want to assume.

We had a nice dinner/supper at Simpang Bedok, which was soooo over priced. Satay for 50c a stick???come on man...id rather go to Lau Pa Sat, there only 40c. But the food was nice lah, and the scenery too. Hehe, sometimes im glad im in Singapore and not KL. The minah's here are a more...eh...experimentative.

Well, this weekend ive got a chalet the WHOLE weekend. till monday...dont know how im going to survive.

A distant love, a farther pain, an unbearable yoke. I miss her.

joshie

Bangalore part 1

2006-02-08T01:08:00.000+08:00

YD sending me off
@ the Airport

3/4 of the Band

Bangalore
(supposedly)
International
Airport

A rare Toyota
SERA

The Ferrari of India
The Ambassador

Nickelodeon
was just too
darn expensive!

The Government's
Electrician

THE AUTO
(3 wheeled
wonder taxi
in india)

Talk about
Mass Transit

Birthday treat

2006-02-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

Its been a long time since ive been really given a birthday treat.
And i really appreciate Roy for giving me one.
Billy Bombers was great...the JUMBO HOUND DOG.

Sigh, still having withdrawl symptoms about Banglore.

I really cant wait to go back.

Joshie

23 and counting

2006-02-03T16:26:00.001+08:00

Finally 23...
A new beginning...
A new love...
A new life...
A set clear direction...
A new breakthrough...
A new Joshua...

Adult...completely

My heart is in my homeland.

My future is in the sky.

My destiny is in Him.

Joshua Raj Mahendran

The Adventures of Banglore Boy

2006-02-01T23:40:00.000+08:00

This mission trip was a breakthrough for me in the area of worship and music, as well, as a bit in the prophetic. I had to overcome my fear of making a mistake (which i did during my solo)...but i managed to pick myself up and lead worship for the main service in the evening...which im thankful to God for. We as a team made sooooo many new friends and a new family, there in Revival Centre Church. We charged up the youth, and gave the worship team some pointers...and just prayed that the Holy Spirit continue to keep the fire going.

Day 1
Took off at around 1.30am from Changi 02 L, on JetStar Asia. Our flying time was 4 hrs, and Banglore is 2.5 hrs behind in time. We managed to get the window exit seats, so there was significantly more leg room for us with longer legs, thank God. So me, Pat and Caleb were in one row, and we bought some drinks, nuts and a pack of playing cards to pass the time...lol. That was an experience. Anyway, besides all the excitement in flying, and sleeping, or rather trying to sleep, we reached Banglore at 2.30 local time. Uncle Jacob picked us up and we drove to his place where we would be staying.
Oh yes, the temperature was a freezing 13 degrees. hehe. But it was great, seeing India in real life and not in reel life.
We reached the place, unloaded, met his mom and aunt, and the NOISY dog Tagger. Then crashed straight into bed....phew. woke up at 9 for breakfast...down stairs...oh yeah, it was a 3 storey house, one on top of the other...so uncle Jacob's mom cooked a wicked apom...eh....rice cake thing, and we had it with pudina and chicken curry. Then we headed back up to get over the jet lag. We visited a guy named Steve, who had a gym, and was really impacting the town through that gym...and he took us for lunch...ooh, all the yummy Indian food, bryiani, thosai....whatever else yummy thing you can think of.
Then we had dinner at i forgot where...lol
Had a good rest that night...first night in Banglore...cold!!!
OH yeah, we went to CALL CENTRE CHURCH....amazing voices, amazing guitarists!

Day 2
I realise i have SOOOOO much to write.
Sigh, ill make it in point form.

Breakfast at home, relaxed today abit, lunch at i forgot where...i think it was auntie Annanmah who took us out that day...hmm, with Priscilla. It was my first ride in an Auto ( three wheeled taxi). Had another indian feast lol. (a lot more to come ). Before that we visited her husbands polyclinic/hospital and we prayed for most of the patients and staff there. I really cant remember friday....dont know why...hmm.

Day 3
Today was my Big day...two worship sessions, one with the youth, and the other with the main service...I really needed God'd annointing, and his presence to be there.
Anyway, we had a great time...Jumping around like jack rabbits..well, i was anyway...some of them were. But we had a Rockin TIME...lol, then we rushed back , changed, and I had to lead the next service!!! Once again, God's annointing...not me. Was as nervous as a.....um.....i dont even know what i was nervous as. Anyway, that night was a success, in terms of ministry...and friendship

Day 4 - Sunday monrin
Was the Typical Morning service there...with Hymns...oh gosh...i felt so like in an orthodox church. But the after the message...Auntie clare led in a short time of worship...which was a refresher. We made more friends...many more. Auntie Rowena had a short session with the children, during sunday school, and i played the piano ( the OLD, New York made piano). That night the meeting was the best, our team really broke through in worship and some of the people really broke through, which was encouraging.
We had dinner at a Chinese Restaurant about 10 mins walk away...

Joke of the trip...
In India...when someone says "The place is just there only", it actually means, "...go the juncution of a main road, take an auto, travel about 2 kilometers".

Day 5
We started our shopping...
Commercial Street
A Bible Shop
And most of them bought stuff, except me. Thats my style lah.
At night, Pastor Ferdinand (senior pastor there), and Jascile, and Debbie, took us out for dinner, to this great place called Richie's...an Indian restraunt, but the ambiance was soooo middle eastern, and posh. And the Chicken Tikka was MOUTH BURNING!!!!
Took a ride on Jas's bike...Oh what a ride...on that Royal Anfield. But im still never buying a bike.

Day 6
Continued our shopping...
Banglore Central (which happned to look a lot like PS)
Then back to commercial street where i bought a beautiful designer Kurta and 2, yes 2, churidar...all for 3500 rupees. which would be..um SGD 134.00
After which we went back to our place to rest.
Dexter and Jacky took us over to their place for dinner, and fellowship...
Then they sent us back, for our last min packing and getting ready...
Flight was at 3.30 am. And we touched down at 02 L at 10.25

There is one thing about Banglore, the people there are genuine, and the are hospitable beyond measure.
My new friends (family) is listed below...in no particular order.
Chris Yates
Debbie David
Priscilla Thomas
Abigail Thomas
Jerome
Immanuel
Dexter
Jacky
Rebecca
Rebecca's cute sis who toddles around in her pampers.
Not forgetting Jascile
Auntie Annamah

AND ALL THOSE NOT MENTIONED
you are in my heart.

All in all, God was there.
It was a success, cant wait to go back.

Last Day Ahead

2006-01-24T20:19:00.000+08:00

One more day to go before im off to Banglore...
Sigh, so many last minute problems...and desperate tries to get my spirit down.
Sigh, i have to get past it all, and focus on the task at hand first, and let my mind be on it. Nothing else.

Payback has to be later.

Its over and erased.

Im going, and no hindrance is going to be there, cause its been torn down.

joshie.

Banglore Ahoy!

2006-01-23T23:08:00.000+08:00

Banglore is only 2 days away, and im not feeling that nervous..thank God. Or maybe it still hasn't set in yet...
But im all ready and geared up...can't wait for it.
My first major worship leading session...overseas.
My goodness....help me Lord.

Oh where is my heart?

Somewhere far away, in a far away land...with electric trains.

Well, God's will be done in Banglore, and let there be a fresh move of the Spirit

joshie

Stupid @#&%!&@% Me

2006-01-19T10:07:00.000+08:00

I never intended for it to happen, never knew it would. shit....
I've lost everything!!!
SHIT
CRAP
&@%$)!&@%">&@%$'>&@%$)!&@%"
And whatever else you can throw at me.

All it took was just two clicks...two bloody clicks...
And all my YEARS AND YEARS of documents, projects, files, memories...were all gone...
shit
I really hate myself now.
really.
REALLY.

*hits head with hammer*

joshie out. really out.

The day i lost you...

2006-01-16T13:48:00.000+08:00

The day i lost you, i cried my heart out
Wishing you didn't say i have to go.
A friend so dear, and so trusted, understood.
Could just leave, and say...no more.
Why?
Cause you just can't be around me and not think back to times when i lives were different?
I can and I have, why can't you?
I think its outrageous
Insane even, that you can't be mature about it.

sigh

sigh

sigh

My heart will always have a place for you my dear friend, if you choose to return, and it shall be as spick and span, as the day you left it.

Cause true friendship does not dwell on politics, connections or history. Its an unparalled expression of Phileo love. Not Agape, not Eros, but Phileo.

joshie.sad.out.

Hands on Rice

2006-01-15T21:15:00.000+08:00

Its been 2 years or more since my hands touched rice and it went into my mouth.
It feels good.

joshie

Bloggers Beware...

2006-01-13T14:09:00.000+08:00

To all my friends, aquaintances, hobbits, dwarves, and elf-kin.

The Govenrnment of Singapore has just release a statement regarding the use of songs on bloggers' personal website. Bloggers are 'encouraged' to pay for putting the copyrighted songs on their blogs; S$1,000 for 10 songs, and S$10,000 for 50 songs.
(straits times, 13th Jan 2006)
Crap.

This goes to show, that they just want us to be creative, and express our feelings another way, which they will choose for us. Bullshit mate.

Well, song or no song im sure there is a way to get round this.
Au Revoir, joshie out

Haha, i just realised today is Friday the 13th!!! Muahahaha!!!

A Cold Winters Day...In Singapore.

2006-01-11T22:50:00.000+08:00

Well, Its raining...whats new. Cold, dark, and miserably blue.

But today is the turning, point in my career, life, studies, and life from now on.
I now know what He has planned for me. And i know the right direction i must go. So ill just keep follwing till i reach the end, which is His will.
A new friend was born today, and new found strength for my life.

Joshie is reborn, with new wings to fly.

joshie out

Wet Holidays...

2006-01-10T12:11:00.000+08:00

Twas a wet Tuesday morning, the rain was pouring, the birds werent singing, and it was cold, clammy and *icky*...
Sigh, i just hope its not like this by the 21st of Jan. I want Yvonne to have the best birthday possible, and of course, Joanne too, and then Me when i get back from India.
Its going to be tough... I have to worship lead 2 sessions...Its my first time in front of such a big crowd, and a foreign crowd some more...sigh...
I really need help from above.

Sigh.

Today Im going with YD to get his new car. A black Kia Rio. And im Going to be the official designer. Then after that ive got to go to a bbq, but i don't know if its going to be successful, cause of the rain...

joshie out

Stone

2006-01-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

Met the wonderful Sharon today...lol, well ive known her since i was in Tamworth. And she has been a support and a driving force behind my piloting dreams. Always, giving me options and keeping my flame alive.
Went to watch The Family Stone. Was a great movie, and made me think about a lot of things.

Family, The Gay movement, and child adoption.

Many braincells were used.

joshie out.

TOMORROW HOLIDAY

YD and MIN's 23rd

2006-01-06T22:33:00.000+08:00

Birthday Boy and Girl

Charlie's Angels

Me and Mr Bodybuilder @ Cinelesuire

Chilling out at Devil's

My car (I wish) Ferrari 360 Modena

My weekend car (I Really wish)
Lamborghini Murceilago

Dearly Departed...

2006-01-06T22:12:00.000+08:00

Today was a day of mourning, but in that mourning we also find hope, and life eternal.
Mdm Martha, my senior pastor's mom funeral was held today.
So we had the funeral at teck whye, then headed out to the mandai crematorium.
Such a beautiful place.
Made me realise again what little time we have on this earth, and the reality of death...
But the hope of eternal life, in Christ, is what we can hold on to.

Funny how a person's death can make families, no matter how torn apart...,come together.

Was so glad to see so many old friends, and people i really miss.
sigh.
I just wish people could so easily put their diff aside.

joshie out.